Today would definitely be called "one of those days". It has to do with the saying, "you can lead a horse to the barn but you can't force him to eat." Actually today’s sessions were going along fine until I told Kayla something that I noticed in her. I told her I noticed that she doesn't complain of aches and pains in her arms, legs or feet anymore. She used to come to me at least once a week asking to put a wrap on her foot because it was aching or her hand hurt or something like that. Around here it was very common to see Kayla wearing an Ace Bandage somewhere on her body because of these "aches and pains" but honestly she hasn't complained for at least 2 months now and I'm considering giving away our collection of Ace Bandages (that's a joke)! The deep pressure exercise that I have been doing with her is supposed to help her to be able to sense deep pain appropriately. Children like Kayla feel things overly exaggerated. Pain to them is very deep, something that I wouldn't bat an eye at, or they don't feel pain at all that most people would find very painful, if that makes sense? Well when I told her that, she seemed to disagree with me. She said she still has aches and pains which was aggravating to me because she was once again making a statement contrary to what I see in her or notice with therapy. Well sometimes she will agree with me but most of the time she disagrees with me about things that I notice. I think it's just another mark of adolescence shining through and I hope and pray she gets over it soon because I notice every little change in her, I should after all I am her mother and mothers have eyes in the backs of their heads right?! (especially us homeschool moms!) :-P

But seriously this is an area I have to let go of. I have to give the entire outcome to the Lord because obviously my way isn't working. I think just need prayer about getting the therapy done, not saying anything that I think is obvious to Kayla and wait on the Lord to "bring her to eat" so to speak. Because I can do therapy all day until the cows come home, if Kayla doesn't see or feel a need for it then it won't make a bit of a difference. So I suppose I also need prayer that Kayla will clearly see, appreciate and feel the need for therapy.

I know in my heart that God has lead us to help Kayla in this way. I just need to have faith in Him for the outcome because my faith is indeed wavering right now and I can't allow Satan to get a foothold on our family or my thoughts either.

Mark 11: 22-24; 22"Have faith in God," Jesus answered. 23"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. 24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.